First off, I feel that I
might have sugar coated my last email. This past week I realized that I
do not like to admit when I am struggling. Therefore I always am
looking for ways to stay positive. That is good, but perhaps I should
tell you how I really felt.. So my companions told me that the first 2
weeks are the hardest, and boy were they right!!! Okay so in all
honesty, when I first got to my area, I wanted to cry because I was so
scared. And yes I did cry, not as much as I should've though. I did not
feel like I belonged here and it was super hard. I sugar coated
everything because I take the saying ¨fake it till you make it¨ very
seriously. Eventually it worked, but not with out a lot of praying of
course. I noticed that it got a lot easier as I put a face to the
investigator names and applied myself more in the work. Being a
missionary is so hard. It really is. Learning a new language is
excruciating!!! But as I have continued to be obedient and faithful, I
have witnessed numerous blessings throughout my days. I never though I
would like this area I am, but I have slowly learned to focus on good
things rather that negative. Missionary work can be fun, and IS FUN.
When you apply yourself. I realized that I was stuck progressing
because I didn´t believe in myself as much as I could. But the spirit
is so real.. And it cannot reach out those in need if we are not willing
to do our part. I love my companions so mucha and they help cheer me
up the days that I am down.. It´s fun here even when it´s not, and I
really do believe that all of these hard experiences are going to be for
my own benefit for the rest of my life!!
The
Elders in our district our fantastic! At first it was hard because
everyone here has been out for a long time, so I had to keep reminding
myself to stop comparing my Spanish with everyone else's. It's a easy
concept to believe in but honestly, very hard sometimes to apply. Not
only do I learn more Spanish everyday, but I learn something about this
magnificent gospel literally every day. Sometimes I wonder if I even
had a testimony before coming.! ha. Because honestly, the apostasy and
restoration are the keys to understanding why this church is true. I
know with all my heart that this is the true and only church on this
whole earth with the same priesthood keys that Jesus Christ had on this
earth. That truth was gone with all of the apostles died. And
although there were still very good christian people on the earth, not
all of the priesthood keys were on the earth. That is why Joseph Smith
was such a critical player in this religion. I know that God and Jesus
truly appeared to him so he could restore this gospel. I know that that
it was the perfect time for the earth to have the truth once again. I
am beyond grateful for the knowledge I have for eternal families and
that a prophet leads and guide us today.
Prayers work!
The
other day we could not find our key to the chapel because it fell off
our key set. We looked at each other and Hermana Finch said HELLO WE
ARE MISSIONARIES WITH THE SPIRIT WE NEED TO PRAY!! So we laughed and
dropped on our knees and asked the Lord to help us find the key... 2
minutes later is shows up in her bag!! OH SNAP. So then we busted out
laughing and said BACK ON OUR KNEES. And then we thanked him.. Haha, it
was great!!!
Spanish can sometimes be hard
but I am starting to hear words that I can understand!! I know that it
will come, and I can't WAIT until I can express myself with the language
of these people. Most of our investigadores are South American. Most
Spaniards are kind of stubborn.. uhh... so in other words, we are very
lucky if one will listen to us. haha. Alcorcón is full of lots of
different kinds of people it´s great!!! I am safe and loving my
experiences here!!!! I hope you guys are all doing well!!
Love Hermana Berry!!!
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